September 4, 2009

• Ahhhh...

  Here I am again. Blogging because I'm nervous, anxious, terrified, etc.

  I just made an appointment with the 3D studio at the mall. The one in Provo apparently doesn't exist anymore so we are going to Sandy. It all happened so quickly. I just called to get prices for the packages and before I knew what was happening I had an appointment scheduled in less than two hours from now.

  Now I'm so nervous that I'm sweating, pacing back and forth, and feeling like I'm gonna throw up. I mean, there are SO MANY things that could be wrong, ya know? I'm trying not to stress about it but it's just impossible. What if there's no heartbeat or the skull isn't fusing right or the spinal cord has problems or the kid has no arms or something? I'm so scared. Jeremy seems pretty chill. He's just really excited.

  We just found out yesterday that they are somewhat drastically cutting Jer's hours at work. As far as we can tell we are gonna lose about $700 a month. So in reality, we probably shouldn't be spending the $99 on this 3D ultrasound, but I just need some good news. And my family could use some good news. So I'm really hoping it's good news. At this point in my pregnancy, they should be able to tell the gender of the baby. As long as the baby isn't completely uncooperative. I really feel like knowing whether it's a boy or girl will completely change this entire experience.

  I'm not telling anyone about this. Even if we find out the gender, I'm hoping we can keep it a secret until we can send the video to my parents or get it online so they can see it. They don't know we're doing this and I want it to be a surprise.

  Whew, I'm gonna go try to lay down and calm down. I'm just praying the baby is healthy and far enough developed that we can find out whether it's a boy or girl! And heaven help us if it's a boy because the whole boy names situation has not improved...haha.

  I'll let you know!

  • 4:30 pm
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