August 22, 2009

  • 1 week and 1 day down: Saturday, July 11th

    Dear Baby Swafford #1

    So pregnancy is weird. And it's crazy. I've heard about all the symptoms before, but you are not playing around! I always thought, "So I'll be a little tired, so what? I'll take a nap!" But this is not just tired. This is fatigue beyond fatigue. It's tired at another level. I feel like I'm running a marathon every day. I hope that means you are growing really fast, and really healthy. My body is physically tired, and my brain feels tired as well. I can take a three hour nap, feel great for half an hour (to eat and pee) and then be ready for another nap. And OH THE EATING AND THE PEEING. If I didn't have to do one or the other, I would sleep all the time. But I do have to pee. Every hour. At least it seems that way. You've parked yourself right on top of my bladder so we visit the toilet a lot.

    But you know little bean, I'm not complaining. I'm really not. It's just such a marvel to me that all these things I've heard about are happening to ME. And that you, a tiny, itty-bitty little being can do such drastic things to my body. In fact, it's quite reassuring to feel these symptoms. I'm so terrified that you, my very first baby, will decide that you liked your home up in heaven better than the one here in my belly, and you'll go back. Today I felt great. I didn't throw up or even want to, and I was awake for several hours without heartburn or fatigue. It worried me. I peed on another little stick just to see if it made a darker line than the one I took last week. I knew that wasn't really proof, but it did make me feel better! That was one dark line! I hope it means you're here to stay.

    You had your first doctor's appointment the day before yesterday. It went really well! I didn't get to hear your little heartbeat yet, but the doctor said that you were making my belly nice and big and soft. That's good! He also told me that I'm seven weeks pregnant with you, not six like I was thinking. Seven and a half weeks now! It was great to find out you were one week closer to being here.

    Your Daddy has been so cute about everything. He can't help but tell everyone about you, even though you are still supposed to be our little blueberry-sized secret. He's already told several people at his job. He talks about you all the time, and he's only called you a parasite one time! He's very sweet to me too. He lets me sleep a lot and helps me get around safely and brings me chocolate milk when you want a drink. You love chocolate milk! I've probably drank more chocolate milk in the last week than I have in the last five years. I hope it means you will have strong bones. We have to buy big jugs of it just to keep you satisfied. You're cute already.

    Well that's all for now little bean. I'm going to take a nap so you can have plenty of energy to grow your little arms and legs this week. Love you!