March 1, 2009

  • If you are looking for something uplifting you might wanna look somewhere else...

    Sorry for all the boring pictures of the house, I had to show some structural stuff to my parents. The house has some issues, and I wanted to get their opinion.

    Crookshanks has not shown any improvement. He crawls around on his knees. It's really sad and pitiful to watch. The vets have suggested that we put him to sleep if he hasn't improved in the next few days. I just don't feel like that's an option right now. I can't even think it. I've been doing some research on disabled pets to see what kind of quality of life he could have. It's very difficult. I don't want him to be miserable or suffer in pain for the rest of his life, but he's not even 2 years old yet. I can't imagine his life ending. I'm just getting by right now by not thinking about it. I'm gonna give him some time for the swelling to go down and see if he gets anything back. But it's not looking good.

    We still have no real idea of what happened, but we think he fell off the bunk bed sometime in the middle of the night. He was happy and playing Friday night, and Jeremy remembers him being in bed with us when he rolled over sometime while we were sleeping. But when we woke up he was paralyzed. It's just awful. There was vomit on Joey's floor beneath his bunk bed so that is our best guess.

    Ugh. I really didn't need this right now. I'm kinda going through the stages of grief I guess. I was in denial all yesterday, I was blaming myself last night, and I was very angry today. Angry at everything and everyone. I just can't believe this is happening. He already had a terrible week with being sick and having to get a bath, now he's most likely got a permanent disability and there's nothing we can do. It makes me feel helpless and bitter. It does look like he's gonna end up like me.

    Sorry to be so depressing. There's just a depressing mood around here right now.